In this letter to his mother, Louise, Grant describes being en repos and the tantalizing carrot of permission dangling before him.
Convois Autos.,
S.S.U. 647,
Par B.C.M.,
France.
Friday – June 14, 1918
Dearest Mother:-
It’s been almost two weeks since I last wrote you. And a busy two weeks it has been, too. We are still where we were and have been for the last two months. (Read the first article in the Literary Digest for May 4). Several of our cars have been laid up so that some have had to do extra work. I am now on my third day of rest. Tomorrow will be my fourth and last. It’s just like coming back on repos to come to this camp of ours. It’s as quiet as the cemetery next door--far enough back so that we can only hear the big guns and sufficiently out-of-the-way and small enough so that we are not bothered by air-raids. Have spent my time back here this “hitch” just sleeping and eating. It feels great to be able to sleep in a good bed in a large airy room free from bugs and rats. We (#647) played the French Engineers in soccer last night after supper. This is the third game in a series of five which we have played these boys. They have won two games (2-1 and 1-0) and we have won one (2-1). It is rather difficult for us to depend upon 11 men who play because we are continually shifting in and out of this place. Soccer provides diversion and excellent exercise. The Frenchmen are fine sports and enjoy playing with us as much as we do them.
Soccer |
Stuart Hugh Fraser AKA Fraze (1892-1990) |
Am
writing Bill Everett today to tell him the glad news and see if we can’t get
together. Bill’s situation will
have a lot to do with where we will spend our permission. I should
like to get down south again if possible.
The government may have something to say about where we are going,
however. The good old days of
going where you will
when you will have passed, I’m afraid. So much for myself.
Mother,
I have just received a letter from Dot, dated May 19, in which she told me all
about her engagement party. I
really can’t tell you how deeply I was affected by what you did for her in my
absence. That letter put me to bed
and kept me there for two days.
You know, Mother, a year has taken me a long, long, way from home both
in thought and person. Now don’t
misunderstand me. I think of you
all very, very often but I can’t place myself back there among you. I’ve tried it time and again but it
simply will not work. I can’t
explain it. Maybe because the
nature of our work over here compels us to put most of our energy and thought
behind our work and to forget everything else. Home seems so far off and a thing of the past because we
have cast it out of our minds in our determination to stick over here until
this thing is over. We know not
when that time will be. It may be a
year, it may be a hundred. In any
circumstance it’s our duty to stick it
out. It
isn’t a pleasant thought but it’s the truth. Anyway when Dot told me what you had done it broke me all up
and a terrible attack of homesickness set in. It’s the first real severe attack I have ever had and hope
it’s the last. Went up on the hill
last night alone and had it out. Feel much better today. The
novelty of this experience is no longer here to buoy us up. That has worn off long ago and it is
now a continual night of bad dreams and horrible sights. I’ve had enough. God, when will this thing be over?
Dorothy Houghton Willard (1894-1979) |
I
don’t want Dot to take that nurse’s course, training, I don’t want her to come
to France. Her mother says Dot
isn’t physically strong enough and then she--Dot--has the wrong idea back of
it all. She says she wants to do
her bit just as if that necessitated coming over here. She is willing to attempt a branch of
work which she herself admits she isn’t crazy about just to get over here and
to see me. I would love to have
her near me but not in present France nor while doing work she didn’t like and
isn’t fit for.
Somebody
from Minneapolis inquired for Hap and me at camp here other day but we were
both up on post. He left no name
but said he would be around again. Would like to know who it could be. Thought everybody from Minnesota was an officer outside of
Hap and me but this fellow, they say, was a private.
Here’s
hoping that by the time this letter reaches you I will be off on our permission
with Fraze and Bill. Bill will
like Fraze I’m sure.
Thank
you, dear people, for all you have done for me. I feel more helpless than ever.
The same old barrels of love.
Grant.
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